Ohh the stress.
One thing after another. Yesterday was a bunch of little things, the Old Man in the Sky poking at me to see if I'm ready for the stress of school yet (You know, OMITS, you could just ask. I can tell you right off the answer is no). Or maybe he was just trying to piss me off, the passive-aggressive bastard, cause he does that sometimes.* Today I did not get paid as I was supposed to and my checking account balance is negative and there's no fucking food in the house because nobody's going shopping because everybody's moving out and sure I'd shop but I have no fucking money, otherwise I'd just pick something up from taco bell or something because I don't want to cook in that awful kitchen that nobody ever ever cleans up after themselves in.
I shit you not, there is a 1.5' by 1.5' counter next to the sink that is covered with plastic containers. And a plate and a baking pan and probably more stuff, now, in the sink holding water and incubating bacteria to stink up the house. I am taking out the compost ONE MORE FUCKING TIME AND THAT'S IT because it REEKS so fucking bad because people throw fucking EGGS into it. TAKE THE FUCKING LIQUIDS OUTSIDE, PEOPLE, IT'S NOT THAT FUCKING DIFFICULT.
I have begun to really hate that house.
So I go in to talk to the business office and it ends up I MIGHT get paid on WEDNESDAY which will have me sitting in a foodless apartment for at least a full day because my roommate won't be moving in for another week. I called Mom in tears and she's going to send me money tomorrow which will post to my account on Monday. Mommy makes it all better.
Also, I have about ten hours for this week, 20 is the max and that's what I need, and I'm not going to be able to work more because I have to pack and shit.
Someday, I keep telling myself, I will have a similar fuckup in payroll and I will not freak out when I find out, I will calmly talk to the people to get it fixed and then I will go on with my day, the delayed paycheck a minor problem in the back of my mind until it comes through. I will not be nervous about how I'm going to buy food or pay bills.
That day is a long way off.
I am so SICK of not being able to get a fucking soda when I want one, or chips to tide me over till dinner, or going out before dinner to pick up a few things instead of looking in my cabinet and realizing that, well, it's ramen or instapotates tonight honey, and when I get paid again then I can get some real food. Or going to the grocery store knowing that I can't buy fresh produce because it's too expensive for the length of time it lasts in my kitchen. C doesn't understand why people buy canned corn in ILLINOIS for god's sake, well you've got a dollar for corn and you can get two cobs or four cans, which are you going to take when you only have $50 for two weeks of groceries?
Actually, I don't even buy corn. Green peppers, tomatoes, onions, mushrooms, carrots (I want the baby ones but they're too much, so I get the regular ones and skin the whole package at once because otherwise I won't eat them), potatoes. Should get some spinach and colby and chicken and big tortillas too and make some veggie-chicken quesadillas, those were goooooooooooood. I cut up everything at once and didn't have to do any chopping when I made two more of those.
Maybe I could get some plant pots and grow some herbs.
And maybe they won't die of thirst.
And maybe one of them will grow money.
<sigh /> Okay I'm done with this pity party. I'm going to go do work now.
*Don't give me that look.
I shit you not, there is a 1.5' by 1.5' counter next to the sink that is covered with plastic containers. And a plate and a baking pan and probably more stuff, now, in the sink holding water and incubating bacteria to stink up the house. I am taking out the compost ONE MORE FUCKING TIME AND THAT'S IT because it REEKS so fucking bad because people throw fucking EGGS into it. TAKE THE FUCKING LIQUIDS OUTSIDE, PEOPLE, IT'S NOT THAT FUCKING DIFFICULT.
I have begun to really hate that house.
So I go in to talk to the business office and it ends up I MIGHT get paid on WEDNESDAY which will have me sitting in a foodless apartment for at least a full day because my roommate won't be moving in for another week. I called Mom in tears and she's going to send me money tomorrow which will post to my account on Monday. Mommy makes it all better.
Also, I have about ten hours for this week, 20 is the max and that's what I need, and I'm not going to be able to work more because I have to pack and shit.
Someday, I keep telling myself, I will have a similar fuckup in payroll and I will not freak out when I find out, I will calmly talk to the people to get it fixed and then I will go on with my day, the delayed paycheck a minor problem in the back of my mind until it comes through. I will not be nervous about how I'm going to buy food or pay bills.
That day is a long way off.
I am so SICK of not being able to get a fucking soda when I want one, or chips to tide me over till dinner, or going out before dinner to pick up a few things instead of looking in my cabinet and realizing that, well, it's ramen or instapotates tonight honey, and when I get paid again then I can get some real food. Or going to the grocery store knowing that I can't buy fresh produce because it's too expensive for the length of time it lasts in my kitchen. C doesn't understand why people buy canned corn in ILLINOIS for god's sake, well you've got a dollar for corn and you can get two cobs or four cans, which are you going to take when you only have $50 for two weeks of groceries?
Actually, I don't even buy corn. Green peppers, tomatoes, onions, mushrooms, carrots (I want the baby ones but they're too much, so I get the regular ones and skin the whole package at once because otherwise I won't eat them), potatoes. Should get some spinach and colby and chicken and big tortillas too and make some veggie-chicken quesadillas, those were goooooooooooood. I cut up everything at once and didn't have to do any chopping when I made two more of those.
Maybe I could get some plant pots and grow some herbs.
And maybe they won't die of thirst.
And maybe one of them will grow money.
<sigh /> Okay I'm done with this pity party. I'm going to go do work now.
*Don't give me that look.
posted by Velvet at 3:17 PM
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